I have an appointment with the Pump Clinic in Alicante this coming Thursday, where after a few years I finally have the chance to come face to face with someone that may be in a position to decide whether I get to pump or not!
I only found out about the appointment this morning leaving me with a day or so to perhaps try prepare for the visit. I must admit that I feel extremely nervous and possibly overwhelmed by it all as I have pushed and kept pushing to get an appointment.
I’ve tried to play down the pump thing since the consultant agreed to get me the referral and to be honest I had expected to be waiting a while so to receive it so soon is great new.
But! Ah, ha there is always a but!
Some questions I have thrown at myself lately include; Am I suitable for a pump? Will my lifestyle meet their criteria? Do I have the right mindset? Am I responsible and/or knowledgeable enough to take my diabetes care to the next level?
I’m not sure what questions the clinic will ask precisely but would be shocked if they did not touch on subjects from above.
Other things that I have thought about include; How I bring my partner in to this? Is she ready to support me. It may sound silly, but I’ve never really had any kind of support network in place, partly due to age of diagnosis as I was 20, single and away from home. Partly due to perhaps my lack of openness upon being diagnosed, sure I talked about it with friends, family and colleagues but never did I have at any stage anyone that I felt I could talk too.
Fortunately things are better now, I now personally know other people who happen to have diabetes, heck I even know some of these droid/pumper people!!
For some reason I happen to have placed an enormous amount of pressure on me to do well on Thursday, like I am representing myself at court. Everyone there to judge you, your lifestyle, your habits (well the bad one’s eh) and possibly your competence.
I’m also aware of the pressure placed upon our clinicians to offer a certain level/quality of care whilst ensuring that budgets are not demolished. As with many other countries, Spanish healthcare reforms play a massive part of the so called “austerity measures” that have been ratified and as such I see that as the major hurdle I now face.
I have a ton of questions that I would like to ask and hopefully I will have a real reason to ask them soon. One question that I would like to ask those of you who have successfully made the transition from MDI to Pump is about how you approached the topic with wife’s, partner’s, mistresses, close family and friends?
Really though, I’m looking for any advice that you feel may be helpful?
Oh, one last thing! I am asking everyone to send some “Pump Approval” Vibes to this Hospital! Maybe we can get them to feel some DOC love!
Until next time